Most of this weekend was spent in bed, either so restless that I couldn’t find anything to do, or so depressed that I simply couldn’t leave bed. Twice though, I was able to get out of the house. One was to practice my driving as I am preparing for the driver’s license test. Everyone who watches me says I am doing a good job, I just don’t see it. Yesterday I was able to attend my brother’s barbecue, honestly because there was really nothing else to do, though I managed to have a pretty good time. I made an appointment to take the behind the wheel driver’s test, but knowing me, I’ll chicken out and cancel at the last minute.
He’s still one of the first five things I think about when I wake up in the morning and one of the last things I think about before falling asleep. I don’t know how much longer I can miss him.
I promise to get back on track today with my posts.