I would do well to remind myself each time I stumble that the past is the past for a reason. There’s a reason that I stopped talking to certain people, or doing certain things. But time passes and leads me to forget, tells me that maybe my gut was wrong and that things could be different.
NO! I must tell myself over and over again. If they missed you, they would write or call, but they don’t so they won’t. The past is not for dwelling in if you miss out on today.
Things are..going. Not going good, but going. We are in the process of selecting a dog to train as a service dog and just haven’t found the right one yet, but we are making progress. That is something. And I’ll look into subsidies so that I can live in or around the city that I have wanted to live in for a long time, and it’s not so far from home. So I just have to be patient.
I don’t know exactly the source of it but the Buddha taught something that really resonates with how I am feeling lately, so I thought I’d share it here.
“Do not pursue the past.
Do not lose yourself in the future.
The past no longer is.
The future is not yet come.
Looking deeply at life as it is
in the very here and now,
the practitioner dwells in stability and freedom.
We must be diligent today.
To wait until tomorrow is too late.
Death comes unexpectedly, how can we bargain with it?
The sage calls a person who knows how to dwell in mindfulness night and day
‘one who knows the better way to live alone'”