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1 year after

Yesterday, despite attempts to turn off such notifications, my Facebook reminded me that exactly a year ago, I came home from my stay in Missouri. Which of course sent me into another emotional tailspin where I couldn’t get out of … Continue reading

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Envy and Jealousy

Thanks mind. I wake up past one in the morning and can’t get my mind to shut up to go back to sleep. Instead I think of people that I hate thinking about. IF i could, i would get deep … Continue reading

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Dreaming

I had dreams about him last night. Though I can only remember one of them. We were on some kind of Vespa, and he was going too fast and we crashed. He didn’t look hurt, or bad, or anything. He … Continue reading

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Slipup

Today, I woke up and couldn’t shake Missouri from my mind. All day. I mostly slept, trying to reset my brain. But it didn’t work. I know that I’m a lot of effort to be friends with, but they promised … Continue reading

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Inducing

My sister is being induced sometime this evening. She’s a week late with my nephew, and so by tomorrow morning, the doctor thinks she’ll be ready to deliver. One might think I would be excited, but then that person wouldn’t … Continue reading

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Day 667- Absolute Shit

Today is without a doubt, absolute shit. Yesterday, an acquaintance, even younger than me, had a second baby. I climbed into bed and was unable to do anything for the rest of yesterday. Today I didn’t get up until 2, … Continue reading

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Day 668-Hypocrite

I’m a hypocrite. Or at best, a bad liar. I’m able to go and have dinner with a friend, and laugh, as if everything that happened to me was harmless. Joke like revenge doesn’t feel necessary, shrug off the months … Continue reading

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